I'm constantly reminded how much our life has changed in the last 14 months. Walking in to the fair I remembered a year ago I went to the fair with Jesse and left Rya with my parents while she struggled to take a nap for the day; now she's almost down to only one nap/day, and she's sitting in her stroller babbling and drinking from a cup with a straw. :) Last weekend Jesse & I ran with Rya in the jogging stroller and I was just amazed how relaxing it was, but so different from when I ran by myself every day after work while I was home alone until Jesse got home, when I had all the time in the world to myself. I used to read books and relax on the couch with nothing to do but watch tv. I remember when Rya was only a couple months old and I thought I would never get to watch tv again, let alone sleep through the night. Now when Rya goes to bed, we are certain she will be sleeping until 6:45 or even a little later some mornings. And, I have so much more time on my hands without breast pumping, feeding Rya bottles, and washing bottles every few days. :)
Not only has life changed, but my feelings and emotions have been on a roller coaster ride. In all honesty, I've gone from being perfectly satisfied pregnant and having no idea how I'd feel about a baby, to overjoyed in the hospital holding Rya, to exhausted and very sad at home missing my life before a baby, to exhausted from going back to work and being scared and dreading going home from work b/c I had Rya all night by myself and she fussed all night without going to bed until after 10, to not being able to wait to get home to see my baby girl! I wouldn't change this last 14 months for anything; I think it's really made me appreciate Jesse more, my life, and Rya.
That all being said, I think this will be my last blog post. I've discovered how I can turn my blog into a book and I think I will do that next, so Rya and mommy & daddy can always remember this journey.
